wala ka kabalo na gakaturn-off na gid ko tapat the more you say those words? gaka irita gid ko na magpaluoy2x ah... it hurts too much with matching wrong grammar and spelling... yeah i know i am not perfect when it comes to english grammar and spelling pero those simple words are not hard to spell and not hard to pronounce... i don't know if you could understand what i am saying and implying... the more you talk in english to impress me, the more na gid ang pag hindi ko sa imo... i really hate guys who would talk in english to impress where in fact it's not very impressive at all, gina himo mo lang kaladlawan lawas mo... sorry gid katama, pero indi ko gid ma feel sa heart ko na fall ko sa imo, when you told me you love me, i didn't believe at all... because i know deep within that our wavelengths are different... i don't know if i am the problem but i know i'm just being true to myself... natak-an gid ko katama! gina pressure pa ko, i don't want to hurt other people especially ang gahambal na love ko nila but you leave me no choice... ikaw gid gapa gwa sang pagka maldita ko... my motto is, i believe in love but not in i love you especially coming from a guy like you... you may love me as what you've said but i can't feel it, asta lang man sa hambal... indi mo ko dali ma intuan ya! i don't care! i know indi ikaw ang soulmate ko kay i was never excited but i was annoyed! i didn't feel glad at all... you didn't reach for my heart... you don't even know the real me, then how could you say you love me? if you really want to know me better, you need to dig deeper... i am not the girl you thought i am!

4th Day: 7 Fears or Phobias I have

    Every one of us has his or her own phobias or fears. Some of them may be faced whiled others may be too hard to overcome.

 

• Losing my loved ones.
  (That includes my family and friends and my future).
  

  
   

• Missing a Sunday mass.
  (That would leave me restless for the whole day and of course feeling guilty).
  

  
   

• To be reprimanded.
  (It includes being reprimanded without doing something wrong).
  

  
   

• I'm afraid of deep waters especially with sharks.
  (That would be so awful.)
  

  
   

• Seeing someone die in front of me.
  (I can't bear it in my conscience just to see that person die without doing something).
  

  
   

• Losing my faith. (It is my faith that saved me, why lose it now? I am really afraid that there will be a time I will lose it due to some circumstances I didn't ask. And if they said I'm an honest fool, then I say, it is better to be deceive than to lose that faith not only in God but in some people too).
  

  
   

• Angry parents.
  (You know what its like to be scolded by your parents).
  

  
  

 

2nd Day: 9 Things I do Everyday

• Wake up
  

  
   

• Take a bath
  

  
   

• Kiss my parents goodbye
  

  
   

• Go to work
  

  
   

• Eat
  

  
   

• Drink my chuckie
  

  
   

• Smile
  

  
   

• Read
  

  
   

• Sleep
  

  
   

  
   

  Teehee!!! That's what I do everyday without a miss! =)

1st Day: 10 Random Facts About Me

    This is the challenge I took when I read the blog of a friend. So I had also my 1^st day: the 10 random facts about myself. I already shared it to my textmates, now it's time to share it to my blogmates. Here it goes…

 

• I am a FILIPINO and I'm proud to be one
  

  
   

• I love animes, Asian stuffs, Asian songs, Asian etc.
  

  
   

• A certified chocoholic and a sweet tooth
  

  
   

• Frustrated detective/agent/spy
  

  
   

• I love music and numbers but not so good in arts
  

  
   

• I love to read and my passion is writing
  

  
   

• I love to watch videos of Ryan Higa, Kevin Wu, Wesley Chan, and WongFu Productions
  

  
   

• I love to travel and have adventures
  

  
   

• I can't live a day without smiling though I'm having a bad mood
  

  
   

• Lastly, I'm a PHARMACIST, this is my calling, this is my pride.
  

 

Please watch out for my second day. I need to go my own way….TEEHEE! =)

 

This Is My Calling, This Is My Pride

    I just got home from my afternoon shift in a hospital pharmacy. Yeah, it was a bit tiring but it's actually fine, I had fun though and a good laugh as well. I am just wondering why is it so hard to find fellow pharmacists? Why is it we are only few? It is very rare for you to see other pharmacists who would actually practicing their profession, aside from the academe of course, but they are practicing through teaching young minds to have future pharmacists.

    In my almost four months of working in the hospital, I had experienced a lot of frustrations and hardships, yes, my experience is not yet comparable to what others may have experienced. Sometimes, I am wondering if being a pharmacist is a curse or we are just not appreciated by others? Just because we are few, it does not mean that we are not important, where in fact we are part of the health care team and we are important. I always wonder why the treatment of pharmacists in the Philippines and other countries are so different. You may not blame other pharmacist who chose to work in abroad because there, PHARMACISTS are appreciated and highly recognized while here, in our own country, we are just the "inday" and the "toto". We don't mean anything to them, they don't even know that we are existing, they don't know how difficult and risky our work is. They are just seeing the superficial things we do like dispensing their medication. I admit, it is better to serve foreigners because they are respecting you, they are asking you for knowledge and advice, you will feel that you are needed and you could apply what you know through counseling. They give you due respect and you will feel so confident.

Fine. I need to stop this. I just feel sad because two of our pharmacists will be leaving us. It will be a burden on our part because we are now decreasing in number and a lot of work to do. Three areas to cover and in patients and out patients to serve, and there's only about 12 pharmacists left to do them all! We need more pharmacists, not only in our hospital but here in the country…=(

40 Random Facts About ME!!!

1. I love GOD, my family, friends and of course MYSELF! (how could I love others if I can’t even love myself?)
2. My mother planned to name me CHARISMA and my nickname should have been CHARM. (Don’t call me CHARM, it is restricted).
3. I love to eat.
4. My favorite hobby is sleeping.
5. I love to write and make a blog.
6. I love music.
7. I play the guitar and octavina, I’m starting playing the violin and relearning the piano.
8. I love anime.
9. I love to read books.
10. I can tolerate cold temperature.
11. My pain tolerance is high.
12. I love forensics and crime scene investigation.
13. Definitely a frustrated detective.
14. I love numbers.
15. I love arts but the feeling is not mutual.
16. I like bikes and cars.
17. I want to have a LAMBORGHINI. (DiABLO will do)
18. My code name last review was TRUENO AE86. (another car, meant for racing mostly use for drifting, next in line to my LAMBO).
19. I love chocolates and ice creams.
20. I am such a sweetie.
21. I am extreme.
22. I want to listen to ASIAN songs. (Chinese, Japanese, Korean and OPM)
23. I am simple.
24. I’m not fashionable.
25. I love movies.
26. I love shakes.
27. My happiness is too shallow.
28. I want to study further.
29. I want to play the drums.
30. I want to travel around the world.
31. I want to have a library.
32. I am boyish.
33. I’m planning to enter the convent.
34. I’m collecting ADIDAS Bags and slippers.
35. I am a member of NBSB.
36. I love teddy bears and stuff toys.
37. I play basketball.
38. I was diagnosed with ADHD.
39. I am autistic.
40. I am a FILIPINO.

It’s Singles Day

For 21 years already, I've been single and of course absolutely happy about my status! There were times I used to think to try something new like a relationship, but then it will always cross my mind the possibilities like "Will I ever be happy like this?" and so-so.

Yesterday was Valentine's so being single, I didn't care at all. I was at the hospital for almost 12hours and I had never slept that day, so I slept the whole day today. I had my share of chocolates too. For me, being single for the mean time is the best choice!

 

Lost For Words

Lost for words

I can't think of anything to write

There is nothing left to hide

You knew my feelings from the very start

Praying that we will never be apart

 

Lost for words

I can't think of anything to say

I hope you're always here to stay

Wishing that you'll never leave my side

Even if our worlds will collide

 

Lost for words

I can't think of anything to do

Life is not easy and complete without you

Don't turn my colorful life into grey or blue

My feelings for you will always be true

 

Lost for words

I don't know if I could still continue

Tell me baby, don't you have a clue?

I'm so madly in love with you

I do hope you love me too

 

Lost for words

I can't wait any longer

But I'll patiently wait even if it takes forever

You know that I'll do anything for you

Just promise me you'll be pure and true

 

Lost for words

I didn't expect you'll say those words

Now, all I can do is look at you

Waiting for your next move, anticipating

Hoping, praying, and patiently wishing

 

Lost for words

I can't think any further

You had finally made your speech in order

Hope your feelings would last forever

Even if there are days we see each other never

 

Lost for words

I can't describe my emotions

I'm sure I didn't give you any potions

Loving me was your very own decision

I actually saw it all through your actions

 

Lost for words

Saying "I do" will be the best words I'll ever say

Now, in a very special and memorable day

You and I are got to say our own vows

I assure you I'll love you always, and not only now

Faceless :)

    Hearts' day is fast approaching and here I am blogging about it though I will spend the day in the hospital. It's okay for me because I am single and been a member of the NBSB Movement (NO BOYFRIEND SINCE BIRTH). I am just wondering when will I turn my back from singlehood or will I ever turn my back? (LOL)

    People always wonder why I still don't have a boyfriend, and I think they made it as a mission to look one for me. But I don't think they can look for it. They are playing match making. I just laugh at it, because maybe I'm not yet ready or maybe I am afraid or maybe I am still waiting for the so-called Mr. Right, is Mr. Lee okay?

    To tell you the truth, even though I was never in a relationship, I was hurt, fell in love, was waiting for the right time, was disappointed, excited, kilig, and all the emotions you may feel whenever you're in love or in a relationship. Many had tried to win my heart but not of them succeeded. I was thinking that maybe I have a high standard that it's very rare to meet and if ever I found someone with that standard, that person was not meant for me. But I will not lower my standard now, I'm not that desperate. I know that I have this standard because I know a person or more with that features. But there was this guy who never had the standard I was looking for and he caught me off guard, I fell for him and I was on the verge of saying yes, but then my mind controlled my heart. I was not able to give my yes, but he got my heart. I was just happy we we're never together.

    Ok, enough of that, whenever you feel like asking questions just ask me and I'll answer it truthfully. This post is entitled FACELESS because of a dream. Have you ever experienced a dream where everything is PERFECT and the feeling is great? Where everything you think of is actually happening but of course it is a dream, and then you are talking to your dream guy and both of you are in love with each other, dancing, singing, holding hands and it feels like there's no tomorrow. His face is all you can see, but the sad thing is when you wake up, you can't remember anything… His face is absolutely a blur while the rest is crystal clear? You asked yourself who was the man? Why I can't remember his features where all I can do is think of it?

    That scenario happened to me not only once but many times. The place, theme, feeling, everything is so wonderful and nice. Everything spelled PERFECT but then whenever I woke up, I can remember everything except the faceless man, and I keep on trying to remember his face. My head can't remember him but my heart can, I can remember the feeling and the beating of my heart whenever I think of him, and I am always looking for ways to see him.

    Well, I know that he's taller than me, and there was a time where he was wearing all white, his shirt was white and he's wearing shorts and a good pair of white rubber shoes. He was good looking and we we're walking down the street, talking and laughing at stuffs. Then there was also a time where he was wearing a tuxedo and he looks so handsome with his outfit. We we're dancing and whispering sweet nothings to each other but then it was just in my dreams and in reality he is nothing, maybe he's just the product of my imagination. Where in reality he does not exist but if he does, I was not able to meet him yet or I was able to but I forgot.

    Before I totally forget, I had met a guy last February 3, 2011 at 16^th Lacson St. where John's band was playing. His face was familiar and I know I had met him somewhere I just can't remember where, but I know for sure I had. He was not that striking but I can't forget his face and his smile. Maybe he was the one and if destiny interferes I will surely meet him one of these days. I hope I will.

PINOY AKO!!!

Sa unang blog na ito, gagamitin ko ang pambansang wika ng mahal kong PILIPINAS. Dahil mahal ko ang aking bayan, gusto kong ibahagi sa lahat ng mambabasa na marunong akong magsalita.

Alam ko, maraming nagsasabing mahal natin ang ating bayan, pero ano ba ang nakikita sa ating mga gawain? Masasabi mo bang mahal mo ang bayan mo, kung sa simpleng pagtapon ng basura sa basurahan ay hindi mo magawa? Sa simpleng pagsunod sa alituntunin ng trapiko ay hindi mo makaya? Kahit sa simpleng bagay lamang na maari nating magawa, makakatulong tayo sa pag-unlad ng bansa. Pwede tayo maging modelo sa mga bata, ika nga nila sa mata ng bata, ang ginagawa ng matatanda ay laging tama. Sana naman sa sarili natin mismo tayo magsimula ng pagbabago. Hindi dapat tayo makuntento kung ano ang meron tayo, dapat natin isipin ang ating hinaharap,hindi lamang ang kasalukuyan. Isipin ang nakaraan at gawin ang nararapat para hindi na muling pagdaanan.

Ang kabataan ang pag-asa ng bayan, pero sa panahong ito, masasabi pa ba natin na sila o tayo parin ang pag-asa ng bayang ito? Hindi naman tayo siguro bulag upang hindi natin makita ang nangyayari sa mga kabataan sa kasalukuyan, palagi na lang kahirapan ang rason kung bakit nagkakaganito ang mga tao, pero naisip ba natin na dahil din ito sa pagiging tamad at walang bahala na estilo ng pamumuhay natin kaya tayo nahihirapan? Matatalino naman tayong mga pinoy eh, hindi lang natin talaga ginagamit sa wastong pag-iisip ang katalinuhan natin.

Sige na, humahaba na ang usapan, ang gusto ko lang namang sabihin ay, kahit na marami pa ang mga eskandalo na hinaharap ng bansa sa nakaraan at lalo na sa kasalukuyan, hindi mawawala sa akin ang pagiging pinoy, kahit na baliktarin man ang munod, ako ay ipinanganak sa Pilipinas at ako ay isang pilipino, sa isip,sa salita at sa gawa. Gugustuhin ko pa rin maging isang pinoy. Hindi lang naman puro negatibo ang nakukuha natin, meron din namang positibo at dapat ipagmalaki! Dapat nating mahalin ang ating bayan. Dahil, hindi lang iisa ang namatay para ipagtangol ito!