Faceless :)

    Hearts' day is fast approaching and here I am blogging about it though I will spend the day in the hospital. It's okay for me because I am single and been a member of the NBSB Movement (NO BOYFRIEND SINCE BIRTH). I am just wondering when will I turn my back from singlehood or will I ever turn my back? (LOL)

    People always wonder why I still don't have a boyfriend, and I think they made it as a mission to look one for me. But I don't think they can look for it. They are playing match making. I just laugh at it, because maybe I'm not yet ready or maybe I am afraid or maybe I am still waiting for the so-called Mr. Right, is Mr. Lee okay?

    To tell you the truth, even though I was never in a relationship, I was hurt, fell in love, was waiting for the right time, was disappointed, excited, kilig, and all the emotions you may feel whenever you're in love or in a relationship. Many had tried to win my heart but not of them succeeded. I was thinking that maybe I have a high standard that it's very rare to meet and if ever I found someone with that standard, that person was not meant for me. But I will not lower my standard now, I'm not that desperate. I know that I have this standard because I know a person or more with that features. But there was this guy who never had the standard I was looking for and he caught me off guard, I fell for him and I was on the verge of saying yes, but then my mind controlled my heart. I was not able to give my yes, but he got my heart. I was just happy we we're never together.

    Ok, enough of that, whenever you feel like asking questions just ask me and I'll answer it truthfully. This post is entitled FACELESS because of a dream. Have you ever experienced a dream where everything is PERFECT and the feeling is great? Where everything you think of is actually happening but of course it is a dream, and then you are talking to your dream guy and both of you are in love with each other, dancing, singing, holding hands and it feels like there's no tomorrow. His face is all you can see, but the sad thing is when you wake up, you can't remember anything… His face is absolutely a blur while the rest is crystal clear? You asked yourself who was the man? Why I can't remember his features where all I can do is think of it?

    That scenario happened to me not only once but many times. The place, theme, feeling, everything is so wonderful and nice. Everything spelled PERFECT but then whenever I woke up, I can remember everything except the faceless man, and I keep on trying to remember his face. My head can't remember him but my heart can, I can remember the feeling and the beating of my heart whenever I think of him, and I am always looking for ways to see him.

    Well, I know that he's taller than me, and there was a time where he was wearing all white, his shirt was white and he's wearing shorts and a good pair of white rubber shoes. He was good looking and we we're walking down the street, talking and laughing at stuffs. Then there was also a time where he was wearing a tuxedo and he looks so handsome with his outfit. We we're dancing and whispering sweet nothings to each other but then it was just in my dreams and in reality he is nothing, maybe he's just the product of my imagination. Where in reality he does not exist but if he does, I was not able to meet him yet or I was able to but I forgot.

    Before I totally forget, I had met a guy last February 3, 2011 at 16^th Lacson St. where John's band was playing. His face was familiar and I know I had met him somewhere I just can't remember where, but I know for sure I had. He was not that striking but I can't forget his face and his smile. Maybe he was the one and if destiny interferes I will surely meet him one of these days. I hope I will.